I am a mom... as I say this ,Having just watched The Croods, I hear the "Duh duh duhhh." of the pink sloth looking creature on there... At the beginning of 2009 my husband and I were amazingly blessed with a bouncing 10lb 10oz beautiful girl ... she came into this world in her own time just as she does everything!!  I quickly returned to work craving the adult interaction and not wanting to stall my career.  My precious little bundle started daycare at just a wee little 6 weeks old.  Again I say my husband and I have been blessed and spoiled with little ones who from 1 month on sleep all night long.  We were your typical first time over protective parents.  Uncertain of everything, and eliciting advice from everywhere!!  I love to read and therefor read everything I could find.  We quickly found our groove and had our little rhythm.  I would work for 4 days a week, 10 hr days. I would pick my munchkin up and come home & play till bed time.  Then have a full nights rest..  :) aaahhh.... We bounced through life relishing in the joys of discovering life through the eyes of our daughter. Then we decided the time was right to have another.... Through that process ( there is always a story..:) ) I knew that there were changes on the horizon... I knew God was telling me to get ready but I wasn't sure what was coming...  I was taken out of work at 7 1/2 months pregnant...... and sat at home......  Then he told me.  (Again the little pink sloth Duh duh ddduuhhhh) He wanted me to quite my job and be a stay at home mom.... WHAT????? 
     So, I am absolutely the LAST person who ever wanted to be a Stay at Home Mom.. Not that I have any negative thoughts towards any SAHM... I just knew (or feared more accurately) that I was not equipped to be what my children needed me to be.. I am not patient (all the time) ,I  have limited tolerance (for saying the same things over and over and over and over), have a somewhat strict idea of parenting (the parent is in charge, right?), and pretty defined expectations of behavior of my children ( I speak, they listen.. ppfff..).. You see while working particularly the hrs I was working I was with my co workers more than with my family.. So for those few hrs a night between me picking her up from daycare and her bedtime and a couple days on the weekends it was easy to be all those things she needed.. she wouldn't see that her momma who loves her so much and takes such joy in her is FLAWED.. As a mom who works in the human service field and was educated in the human service field. I know just enough to be paranoid about putting my child in therapy for the rest of her life with some complex or another...
   Some people consider me to be flighty or impulsive but really I am not....mostly.... I am not perfect by no means.  However, many times I know when my Father is telling to do something and I will do as he ask.. So at the beginning of this yr we welcomed our second little bundle of joy in the world at 9lbs 15oz.. Hey, if nothing else I am a great incubator!!!  LOL!!  With just a few days left on my maternity leave, and after much discussion with the dear hubby, I turned in my resignation.  I was becoming a SAHM... Cue the pink sloth....
   My petite little P is currently 9 months old.  Her big sister and little momma A is 4 1/2 yro.  What a ride these last 9 months have been.  They have been filled with joy, happiness, excitement, so much love.  They also have been full of fear, worry, trials, and loneliness.  Many times I have questioned why God asked/designed for me to be here as a SAHM... I know the answer....  for my husband, for my children, for my church, for my family, and yes... for me... the lessons, the growth,, and having to take hard looks (multiple times) at myself and try to figure out... Who the heck am I??  and more Importantly... Who does He want me to be???  So hopefully through our activities and adventures I can learn some of the things that God has waiting for me!!


P.S.  I just have to add... I promise not all post will be so serious and insightful as this.  ;)  But hoping for some insight along with the fun.  Just needed to get my preliminary spew out... LOL!! Also, I am sad to say that I am not an English major and may at times butcher the proper use of punctuations, grammar, etc.. I assure you it is not intentional and please be kind to me.. :)

Be Blessed My Friends!!