What a wonderfully busy day!!  Was beyond blessed to get o see 2 great friends and their amazing little ones that we have not had the pleasure of visiting with in a while.  As I am growing up I am learning that it is much harder to make friends in the grown up world than I remember from childhood.  Don't get me wrong.. It is never easy to step outside our comfort zone.  I am discovering that the friends that I have who accept me for who I am faults, idiosyncrasies and all are very rare gems indeed.  I know that many talk about how hard it is to be a child in today's world and I do think they are correct, but it is also hard to be an adult sometimes..  These children are not learning their prejudices, hates, judgments, and clicks all on their own...  I was one of the ones on high school who had friends from all groups and still do to this day.  I am also seeing that having people in your life that are ok with having real life conversations about uneasy topics with an open mind are so hard to find.  Are we that overwhelmed with our own insecurities that the slightest little thing that makes us uncomfortable we shut down.. SO again I Thank God daily for my true friends!!  Friends whom I have travelled, lead, helped and been helped by in great times!! Scary times, Sad times, troubled times!!  Friends who love and accept me enough to think I am worth fighting for even when I was unwilling to fight for myself.. Friends who love me even when I have wronged them.  Cause lets be honest we are none perfect.  And while I try to show love and appreciation to those I care about!!  I make bad choices, I make selfish choices, and I do things to hurt others I love.  I Love These people!! And when I stop and allow myself to truly think of them I am swamped with overwhelming gratefulness and gratitude.  I also think what an amazing God I have!!  I think of these friends and know they are no where near in comparison to the love, faith, friendship, and forgiveness that God has for me!! What a humbling thought that brings tears to my eyes. This is what I hope to teach my children.. To be the type of friend I have been blessed with.. To know that above all else God is the best Father and Friend I can ever have!!

Be blessed my friends!!

     I am a mom... as I say this ,Having just watched The Croods, I hear the "Duh duh duhhh." of the pink sloth looking creature on there... At the beginning of 2009 my husband and I were amazingly blessed with a bouncing 10lb 10oz beautiful girl ... she came into this world in her own time just as she does everything!!  I quickly returned to work craving the adult interaction and not wanting to stall my career.  My precious little bundle started daycare at just a wee little 6 weeks old.  Again I say my husband and I have been blessed and spoiled with little ones who from 1 month on sleep all night long.  We were your typical first time over protective parents.  Uncertain of everything, and eliciting advice from everywhere!!  I love to read and therefor read everything I could find.  We quickly found our groove and had our little rhythm.  I would work for 4 days a week, 10 hr days. I would pick my munchkin up and come home & play till bed time.  Then have a full nights rest..  :) aaahhh.... We bounced through life relishing in the joys of discovering life through the eyes of our daughter. Then we decided the time was right to have another.... Through that process ( there is always a story..:) ) I knew that there were changes on the horizon... I knew God was telling me to get ready but I wasn't sure what was coming...  I was taken out of work at 7 1/2 months pregnant...... and sat at home......  Then he told me.  (Again the little pink sloth Duh duh ddduuhhhh) He wanted me to quite my job and be a stay at home mom.... WHAT????? 
     So, I am absolutely the LAST person who ever wanted to be a Stay at Home Mom.. Not that I have any negative thoughts towards any SAHM... I just knew (or feared more accurately) that I was not equipped to be what my children needed me to be.. I am not patient (all the time) ,I  have limited tolerance (for saying the same things over and over and over and over), have a somewhat strict idea of parenting (the parent is in charge, right?), and pretty defined expectations of behavior of my children ( I speak, they listen.. ppfff..).. You see while working particularly the hrs I was working I was with my co workers more than with my family.. So for those few hrs a night between me picking her up from daycare and her bedtime and a couple days on the weekends it was easy to be all those things she needed.. she wouldn't see that her momma who loves her so much and takes such joy in her is FLAWED.. As a mom who works in the human service field and was educated in the human service field. I know just enough to be paranoid about putting my child in therapy for the rest of her life with some complex or another...
   Some people consider me to be flighty or impulsive but really I am not....mostly.... I am not perfect by no means.  However, many times I know when my Father is telling to do something and I will do as he ask.. So at the beginning of this yr we welcomed our second little bundle of joy in the world at 9lbs 15oz.. Hey, if nothing else I am a great incubator!!!  LOL!!  With just a few days left on my maternity leave, and after much discussion with the dear hubby, I turned in my resignation.  I was becoming a SAHM... Cue the pink sloth....
   My petite little P is currently 9 months old.  Her big sister and little momma A is 4 1/2 yro.  What a ride these last 9 months have been.  They have been filled with joy, happiness, excitement, so much love.  They also have been full of fear, worry, trials, and loneliness.  Many times I have questioned why God asked/designed for me to be here as a SAHM... I know the answer....  for my husband, for my children, for my church, for my family, and yes... for me... the lessons, the growth,, and having to take hard looks (multiple times) at myself and try to figure out... Who the heck am I??  and more Importantly... Who does He want me to be???  So hopefully through our activities and adventures I can learn some of the things that God has waiting for me!!


P.S.  I just have to add... I promise not all post will be so serious and insightful as this.  ;)  But hoping for some insight along with the fun.  Just needed to get my preliminary spew out... LOL!! Also, I am sad to say that I am not an English major and may at times butcher the proper use of punctuations, grammar, etc.. I assure you it is not intentional and please be kind to me.. :)

Be Blessed My Friends!!